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Oh my God! Why am I so stupid? I'm so angry... argh.. I was thinking what is the most important thing in my life. Hmm.. And I thought that is my family, but what am I doing to show them how much i love them? I want to hug them, tell them who they are for me, tell my parents that i'm sorry for my behaviour.. At most i would like to say sorry to my mother for being so noughty. I did't want to hurt her.. to hurt anybody :( but i'm too stupid.. I should go and tell them all.. but i can't.. - 'not today'. But tomorrow may be to late..

She used to be my only enemy and never let me free,
Catching me in places that I know I shouldn't be,
Every other day I crossed the line,
I didn't mean to be so bad,
I never thought you would
become the friend I never had.

Back then I didn't know why,
why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
all that you did was love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend

I didn't want to hear it then but
I'm not ashamed to say it now,
Every little thing you said and did was right for me,
I had a lot of time to think about,
about the way I used to be,
Never had a sense of my responsibility.

Back then I didn't know why,
why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
all that you did was love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend, My friend

But now I'm sure I know why,
why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes,
all I can give you is love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend

Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
You're my friend
[Spice Girls- Mama]

Now i'm going to write my school's newspaper, and then to meet with my cousin, maybe he'll tell me good news (about boys from Chicago :):):) ). Wish me good luck !